**girl-slash & shipping involving said girl-slash. crackship/rarepair love. **
.among other things.
Please employ the green theme whilst viewing this blog as I made it just for you all. It’s super attractive, I promise.
the details of everything are sketchy at best.
but regardless of the unknown nature of things that are and things that arent, i can feel fairly confident that when she returns and i can have arms wrapped around me from someone who i am comfortable with, a lot of things will feel just a little better.
im bad with touching. you have to be in a very specific place in my mind to touch me, to hug me, and to not leave me feeling violated.
its unfortunate because the list is short and sometimes, there is no access to the 3-ish people who who fill it. and sometimes the list evolves, but right now, im about a week away from feeling at least relatively normal for a bit.
but the week is going to be an awful one, i can feel that burningly. for reasons completely unrelated to her or things that happen between us, but just generally. at least theres something ahead.
what in the fuckity fuck is this bullshit?
i swear to you the only argument half of these people have is “look! white person in a fucking fitted cap dancing with black people!”
i swear to fuck, leave it to SJ to take an innocuous video about dancing and fucking make a big deal.
Cause here’s the thing. In a magical world where she’s ok with breaking it off with him, I think I’d be OK with not talking to that butt ball for a while while he cools off from being betrayed or whatever. Cause honestly, jfc I could use a break from his bullshit for a bit and his blind stubbornness and instance that he’s so fucking intelligent. Arrogance is one thing, being a fucking butt ball is another.
And for the love of dick, if he refers to her like some sort of chore again….well likely I won’t do anything at all. But I’ll certainly fucking hate him for it, that’s for sure.